This is my experiment I'm going to try for 40 days (and 40 nights :)) to find happiness and overcome issues I have in all parts of my life. I feel like I'm having one of those dreams where people can see all of me, because I'm exposing all of my issues. But, I decided to share because there might be one other soul out there who is thinking the same thing.
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| Ready to appreciate Fall and its symbols of letting go, metamorphosis, and beauty in the broken and fallen |
I am too attached to technology, unbalanced, frustrated, jealous, and to an extent, stagnant. It is no surprise that as my body has built up a tolerance to my meds, my health as declined and my emotions have increased. My options towards a solution-or even a marked relief-have dwindled. I am so focused on refusing the 2nd brain surgery that my anxiety is at a height I don't know that I've ever experienced before. Obviously as my depression/anxiety/stress have increased, so have my pains. At this point I'm desperate to do EVERYTHING I can to bring about a positive change in all facets of my life.
I'm still working on my 40 by 40 goals (40 goals B4 I turn 40). Some of these goals I've already completed and others have been incorporated into this experiment. The biggest goal is to step back from technology, appreciate the blessings in each moment, journal through a specific issue each day, and fill the void with something good. I'm hoping to establish more balance, positivity, beneficial habits, and acknowledge my weaknesses and pains. Instead of ignoring, distracting, pushing away, numbing, or drowning out my sorrows, fears, depression, and pains, I decided on this experiment I created. What I'm doing isn't working, so here goes my new experiment.......wish me luck!
LET GO & GROW
Technology (Facebook for 40)
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Spend quality time with loved ones
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Grudge/Unforgiven
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Write a letter and burn it {Bless and release}
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Jealousy
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Record Priesthood blessings
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Thinking everyone else is happier
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Eat rainbow of veggies and fruits
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Little things (roll off my back)
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Water Aerobics
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Narrow vision of how things SHOULD be
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20/20 scriptures/prayer for clearer vision
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Fear ruling my life
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List fears, make a chain, break through 1
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Self Doubt
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Write letters to myself and daughter
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Misconception that Materialism + Physical = Success +
Happiness
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Camp
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Addiction (sugar, emotional eating)
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No sugar 30 days
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Attachment to Money
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Give to an organization/charity
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Pride (not asking for help)
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Memorize 4 scriptures
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Need to be certain
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Plan a trip
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Need to be in control
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Yoga 1-2 times per week
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Negative Body Image & comparing self-worth to physical
image
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Doll myself up, pedicure, hair, date night
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Judgment
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Random Act of Kindness
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Past Misfortunes
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Delete old emails and open tabs
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Mistakes; Mourn failures but forget to celebrate victories
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Forgive someone and communicate forgiveness
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Perfectionism
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One day everything with left hand
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Toxic people
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Drink more water (lemon water morning and 130 oz daily) to
clean out toxins
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Comparison (thief of joy)
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3 Good Things
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Other people’s opinions and expectations; chasing people
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Highlight the New Testament
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Belief that best days are behind me
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Watch 1 sunset and 1 sunrise
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Difficulty making decisions
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Clean out car, closet, and clutter
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Need to be more and do more
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Read “Enough” book
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Pushing myself too hard
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In bed by 10p.m. forty nights
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Thinking my dreams aren’t important
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New Bucket List
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Procrastination
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Take the 1st step to achieve a goal
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Avoiding inner pain and root cause
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Journal & 15 min meditate/visualization
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Expectations/Idealism
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Plan Christmas Gifts
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Anger
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New Theme Song
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Influenced by others/Take on struggles
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Every time taking on, pray to give to God
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Imbalanced/Priorities
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Re-establish morning routine
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Thinking I’m damaged/broken
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Take a picture of something imperfect & beautiful
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Let go of yesterday and tomorrow; live in the moment
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No phone all day long
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Think life should be fair to be good
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Send 4 cards
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Finding Joy or comfort all the time
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Paint 4 rocks & distribute to community
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Satan’s lies/repeating negative thoughts
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Snap Happy or mantra
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Not facing truth/accountability
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Journal “What’s the best version of me?”
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Over-thinking and fear of the unknown (Worrying is like
praying for what you don’t want)
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Expect the best, prepare for the worst, and give the rest
to God journal (20 min scheduled)
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